Thursday, September 14, 2006

Who I am when I look into the mirror...


I kept putting this off and thinking "who am I when I look in the mirror" and the more I thought about it the harder it was for me. So finally I am here getting it done. When I look in the mirror I see...a daughter, sister, girlfriend, friend. There are very few times you will catch me in a bad mood. I love my smile and my big brown eyes. My hair is ok..wishing it was thicker but it thinned out when I got sick. I dont like my double chin lol but thats something I need to work on. Back when I was a kid I was always the chubby girl in school and didnt like myself but was always happy the older I got I learned that its what is inside that counts not on the inside. The last 4 years I have learned not to care with others think. I am me and noone can change that nor I dont want to change that. There are times I dont like me so much but very rare. I have choosen to do the wrong things in the last 4 years that makes me hate myself. I figured I have fixed them and stopped doing what was making me a bad person and making me someone that wasnt me. I dont know why I was doing these things...I guess it was a time in my life where I felt I was trapped and that was my way of feeling free. But as the time went on I was trapping myself even worse and build a huge wall around me and didnt know how to get out or how to stop..but I did and I am glad! It was something in life that I had to learn on my own because noone cared enough to help me through it. I had to do it on my own. NO ONE at all knows this about me. I know that it helps to talk about these things. I just havent had that one person in my life yet that I trust completely enough to talk about it and that wont ever judge me or use against me. Iam a very loving giving person and always think of everyone before I think of myself. Dont get me wrong it doesnt take long to think of myself right after I think of them haha! Right now I am happy with me in the mirror!

5 comments:

harleyangel said...

aww Val. You're such a great person. I'm blessed to call you friend :)

Cat said...

I love that you're so upbeat! And I'm proud of you for making the changes that you needed to make, and you were strong enough to do it by yourself! GOOD FOR YOU!

beckster said...

thats great val that you fixed it on your own. that is the number one thing i have learned in my life, never expect other people to be there for you. yes, they might be, but you really need to know how to depend on yourself! you are a wonderful person, and i am thankful that you think enough of us to share these things with us. love ya val!

doll~ said...

Well, I must say you are indeed one of the most upbeat and positive women I know. And boy o boy am I glad, because there have been many times you've brought me up when I was down. I'll always be greatful for those moments. Im glad you are happy, you always deserve that. The things in your past were just that, in the past... True friends are those that know who you truely are and stillllll love you. And know that when I say that Im your friend that its genuine! Love you always! ;o)

Sara said...

Awww...that's great Val! You're a wonderful friend!